Willpower Harnessing Hostility

Or does the hostility muscle the will power into play?

I reviewed my willpower plan like a school lesson; 

I became aware of my hostility & 

directed it against everything; 

I had to combat everything; 

my deliverance depended on myself alone.

              Writes Andre Gide.

Deliverance being anything but the word we would use.

Remind me to check the original French.

A lot of us might say Coping,

Or Coping Mechanism,

Against everything, as in Louis C.K.

Saying life is shit wall to wall,

Against everything,

But everything in here,

Not out there.

What does out there have to do with anything?